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im SICK...haiz.....

hurhurhur..

Today went back to camp as usual with hyqal...took the 800am bus..reached camp like 20 minutes later.
drove the second half of the day..quite fast..as in the day dat is...
finished driving...den went home...hmm...watching Blue Crush.
VEry Very COOL.haha Hot Gurls..woots..haha...
im tired...like so early la..tired already...and i wana lose more weight...or build muscles...im not sure how..and i got no kaki...how?
anyone up for it?..........................

anyways... ANUGERAH or IDOLs...still dunno if i want to try or not...hmm...


tomorrow another day of driving..yet again...sianx...haha..but what choice do i have...???....hmm...

just wondering.

DO u mean it when you say SORRY?.

bukit batok cc MULTI RACIAL SOCIAL DANCE NIGHT 09..

hmm...juz got back...quite a tiring day for me...hmm..waited for papa to get home..so late la..at 6 den came back. I fell asleep till he came back. Then got up change and went for the show. As usual it was fun. HAHA...haven sang for shows for quite a bit. The makciks and pakciks missed me..haha....anyways..it was cool. Sang di balik cadar Biru...haha..im glad they loved it. Dancing away..haha...i thought i looked old in my solo pic.

Like i know la im old..juz dun wana admit it..haha...

thought u were coming...like you said. But u didnt. Expected. Anyways went to meet Salha and Jon after my song to watch "jangan tegur"..great movie. Alot of Shocking moments...fun fun. Before that went to the arcade. Like there's nothing interesting at all. haha...but ok la..anyways the poster is different. but ok la..same thing. after the movie went back to meet papa n umi. Then went home..took a cab...driver very nice...haha...some how..haha...reached home..bathe and then here i am. Blogging here...yeap...

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Im actually not being myself..i dunno..i juz dun feel good bout today. like lazy and tired. listening to "seconhand serenade's your call" very cool lyrics..i like the chorus tho..

Honestly i duno wad to say la..

and dun ask me to talk it out cos i dun wan and i wont elaborate. IM BEING SELFISH.

period.

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sheesh myself.

haiz.

im feeling under the weather.

got runny nose and sore throat..sneezing alot also..

thats enough to confirm that im falling sick. But i'll endure la..small matter i think.

I THINK.

suddenly feeling hungry.

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came across this thing...haha...
see hw screwed up i am..


[x] Gotten detention.
[x]Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total: 2

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[ ] Didn’t do homework over 5 times
[] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total : 2

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total : 5

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace , facebook , xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc. during class

Total : 4

[] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total : 4

[] Gotten a call from school
[] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school
[] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear
[x] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied during test.

total:4

grand total : 21Multiply by 3: 63%


thats how screwed up i am...u guys give it a try...!

finally a Saturday!!

oritey...!!!....

went back to greenridge the other day! and helped out abit for Speech Day..i duno how it turned out tho.

anyways...<<<>

hmm....went to banquet with sahmadi...i ate mini wok..!SHIOK to the madness..ahakz...hmm..anyways...i started the MAN TRUCK PHASE..and then have been driving around SG...its like super shiok..AUTOMATIC summore...

hmm...today got a performance at BUKIT BATOK CC...MALAM DANGDUT LA SEH..haha....

they wanted me to sing for them...haha..macam star la gitu..haha...lol..will upload pics and vids later..or tomorrow...(no promises..)..haha..anyways...will blog again soon. bye.!

I THINK I NEED TO SMILE MORE...

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.........

A smile is a facial expression formed by flexing those muscles most notably near both ends of the mouth. The smile can also be found around the eyes (See 'Duchenne smile' below). Among humans, it is customarily an expression denoting pleasure, happiness, or amusement, but can also be an involuntary expression of anxiety, in which case it is known as a grimace. Cross-cultural studies have shown that smiling is used as a means of communicating emotions throughout the world.[1] Happiness is most often the motivating cause of a smile. Among animals, the exposure of teeth, which may bear a resemblance to a smile, is often used as a threat or warning display - known as a snarl - or a sign of submission. In chimpanzees, it can also be a sign of fear. The study of smiles is a part of gelotology, psychology, and linguistics, comprising various theories of affect, humor, and laughter.[2]

LAKSA LA SEY!!...

YAY!!...i went to GREENRIDGE...ate laksa..oh yeah..

it was so great.

YUMYUM YUM YUM.....

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i came across dis....

Sagittarius (Archer) November 22 - December 21 Usually a Sagittarius will come off as a blissfully happy idiot. In most cases, this first impression will prove accurate. His moronic enthusiasm cannot be dampened by anything - not even by a cinder block falling on his head. After talking to a Sagittarius for five minutes, you will want to kill him quickly but painfully. From the early age, a Sagittarius will have developed the infuriating habit of forcing his stupid ideas and his company onto anyone who might so much as walk by. An aggressive optimist, a Sagittarius will require a lot of work in a relationship. He usually makes a habit of inventing stories and lying outright, which he rationalizes by what he thinks are good intentions. A Sagittarius usually loves crouds and loud social situations, as well as any place where he can enjoy a meal and a drink without paying for them.

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well..i m seriouly looking forward for SINGAPORE IDOL...i duno if i should give it a try.haha....

or ANUGERAH...confused...

and im also looking forward to improve myself in alot of ways....

_______________________________I CAN DO IT___________________________

today so warm...

haha...WOke up at 5 to go back to camp..got island wide confidence driving..sianx..
anyways...ytd went to perform at CAUSEWAY PT. FHUNKIE STYLERZ FULL FORCE..woots...!!!...will upload pics soon..hmm.......today got leave..till 6..den go for briefing...
waste time...juz now drove myself to changi...woots fun or wad..but too bad cant go fast..haha...
hmm..den came home a while back...even if its for a few hours..i dun mind...haha...tomorrow last day for island wide..den LEAVE...WEEEEE>..!!!!!!!!
before MAN TRUCK PHASE STARTS...den go back to unit..
weee..hahahaha..
anyways... today so hot....
i think....haha..will update later...now going to NAP...weeee....ahaha...

FinAllY!!!!...

Finally after a few weeks of being SCREAM AT....SCOLDED AT...CALLED NAMES...


I FINALLY ACCOMPLISHED THE BIGGEST HURDLE....


I PASSED MY DRIVING LIAO LA..





so to my "dearest INSTRUCTOR"....U CAN TAKE THE $500 and shove it up your nose.


if thats what u pushed me so much for.


i had enough...


and i hope it shut u up for good.


like for real.


Now that TP is done for.


i can have a bit of break before MAN TRUCK PHASE starts...
I am obviously proud of myself.. thanx to all that supported me through.
i thought of giving up at one particular point if time.
IM GLAD I DIDNT.
ON THE CONTRARY.:
i managed to pass ALL my tests at first attempt throughout.

• HIGHWAY CODE
• HSP
• HEIGHT
• LASHING
• PARKING
• TP....

i really2 hope to be able to be the best trainee...and do myself proud....yet again.

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Anyways...tomorrow will be the first outing for FIS after so long.


i really miss them alot.


i miss dancing...


haha.

Sunday mornin'

Im going to SENTOSA today...but somehow like a bit lazy to.

Probably going to go back camp tonight..sianx...haha...anyways...ytd went out..ate at Fish N CO. ate like alot of seafood...super fun....and super full..haha...den went home like around 11 plus...watch vids abit..den went to sleep...

not really sleep actually cos suppose to wait for someone to come over.

cant take it i just dozed off..woke up at 7...no one at home...den on laptop..find songs...hmm...sianx...got message from reghu i think....hmm...dunno what time to leave....hope they wont be late..haha...hmm.....better go bathe soon....yay!!...

will update more pics soon...yeap...okok....dats all for now....okok....cya..!!!

wan

Good friday....holiday..

Juz realised i didnt finished my last post..lol...probably ended juz like that..

hmm...today slept late.

I WANT TO SLEEP LATE AGAIN.

AND ALSO WAKE UP LATE.

AGAIN.

ahaha...hmm..now jus had soya bean and a piece of bread.

shiok..

hmmmmm...today woke up at 8...woke salha up and went back to sleep..haha...so shiok..but have to go back to camp again later.

at 2000hrs..sheesh..another half day den go back to book out..weeeeee....

anyways..i just missed FHUNKIE STYLERZ. i miss dancing, like alot seh....

anyways..im feeling kind of happy that my course is coming to an end...but still, TP is the major one...haha....

will blog again later..now wana KARAOKE...!!!!weeeeee....

GOOD FRIDAY...Good meh?

Hello people(if there's anyone..like ever..lol)..!!
well..this week turned out alot better i guess..lesser angry and moody thoughts.. which is better.
Today is GOOD FRIDAY!...should i be happy..okla..the fact that its a lesser driving day!.haiz...but the bad thing is...tomorrow is still a day to clear..half a day at least, before we get our another day off...
this week did the lest sets of test... HEIGHT..LASHING and also PARKING..together with my ASSESSMENT for public road...up till today..im thankful that everything passed at first attempt.
NOW..BIGGEST THING LEFT TO DO..TP.. SHIT!
Just want to clear this and just enjoy my "FREEDOM"...
Seriously la..hmm...
just now went to eat at C2K..okla..quite full...had satay and kway teow goreng..!! WOOTS...
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went to slack with salha and jon..very sleepy. But cant complain. I guess it is all thanks to the regimental life in the military. SLEEP AT 10 WAKE UP AT 0500..standard...haiz...
now cant even stay fresh at 930...seriously.
But its okla..not everyday can BOOK OUT. What to do?...SUCK THUMB LOR....
hmm.....i feel like going swimming tomorrow..just feeling lazy now..the feeling and thought has been there...just can bring myself to do it...lol..
oh crappy now...cos cant stop yawning.
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BACK AGAIN..

its kinda been a long time since i last blogged bout myself...
but lately, the thought of it is kind of "driving me" to open back my blog.

Well for a start...
my life is kind of depressing. ("AM NOT GOING THRU DEPRESSION")...

thinking bout what my achievements are till this day. I dont think i have anythin much to be proud of. Like when i think of where i am now..i dont think its even great.
I never made it in school..dropped out of...
NGEE ANN POLY..
HIGHER NITEC..
worst case is that i just have a nitec in BST(Building Services Tech.) in ITE.

Got rejected to sign on with the Armed Forces 4 times...
Got rejected to sign on with the Police Force..

Then when i got into BMT..i told myself to work hard and not waste it..in which i did..but sadly...they dashed all my hopes and dreams in juz a simple term called ""SORRY""
very sad.
Am not hoping for it but i was the company best recruit for Gryphon, For 1 day.
they made a mistake..just can give it to me after realising that i am from ite..and my highest qualifications is just a nitec. How sucky can live get??? They took it back from me AFTER ANNOUNCING IT OUT. Super sad.
In the end, i got posted to be in the service line. NOT EVEN IN COMBAT.

In service line has its own ups and down.
currently doing my course. DOWNs..Very demoralising. Getting shouted and scream at..
if only my instructor understands my situation and just give me my space to learn. NOT BY THOSE HARSH ways. ITS SAD. Everytime coming back for rest time. I ALWAYS feel like crap. ALWAYS. Its not that im not trying. I AM. Its just that i am slower to catch up on things.
Always give a sigh and shakes head. THATS WHAT I DONT LIKE THE MOST.EVERYTIME SOMEONE DOES THAT TO ME. I JUST FEEL STUPID.

UPs..getting to go back home. HOME. The place i look forward to everytime. Everytime after a hrashing session.

Course ends 18th MAY.
Really Hope to Clear By then.
Then i can Spend more time in my less stressful life.

150910
that day will come.

in the meantime..........

GOD please give me strength to carry on with my hurdles of life. please.

AM BACK.

This is my first post after deleting my last one.....